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Can love happen at first sight?
As I dived into some old files of mine (a writer’s continous journey), and at some point started searching by title, it came to my own attention that I haven’t written many verses on romantic love. My blog entries are more leaned toward the opposite; heartbreak. Granted, we all tend to write about what has shaped our hearts the most, so maybe that explains my “lack of love” in my writings department. And so I asked myself, have I really been let down that many times? Explains everything… While at the same time, not really. I haven’t been in love more than once — twice, perhaps, if we’re speaking truthfully.…
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Some People: A Poem
Some people love so hard the first time they don’t know how to do it twice. Some people are hard on themselves but soft on whom don’t treat them right. Some people laugh when they mean to cry. Some people go to church to seem nice when they’re rotten inside. Some people can’t let go of some people who broke their heart. Some people can move on the next day and be all right. Some people stay a little longer even if it rips them apart. Some people come and go like the seasons. Some people hate goodbyes of wrong reasons. Some people let age dictate what they should feel.…
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The Crumbs They Call Affection
I ask myself today what’s changed? Heart beating with the same ache, People I’ve loved so long can’t reciprocate, And I settled for crumbs they call affection Given all my attention, dealt with their rejection; I understand it was f—ked up, in retrospection. Today I tried to numb the pain again, day by day, But how long ‘til I no longer feel this way? Heaven knows I tried, from the Milky Way and back Years have passed, but I keep falling into the crack And it’s here I stay, unsure if it’s in my brain Or if the efforts’ been all in vain, And it’s just a no-destination train. My…
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Fetal is Home — a Poem
Be it the time of flowers Days of snow, When too much sunshine Darkens my glow Rain on my shoulders A punch in the gut Pulls my weight down My airways are shut No safe haven found in seasons No comfort for an aching soul My bed holds me in all positions But it knows fetal is home, I feel whole.
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2020 Resentment and Gratitude
Like every year, we do a little reflection on the year that just went by. But like no other year, that I know of, this year gave us a little extra to think about, learn, be thankful for, perhaps regret, and even love. Here are some of the things that I learned and resented this year. I found out that it ain’t true, that your heart can’t break when it wasn’t whole to begin with, because the fragments, every broken piece multiplies, actually. I learned about the agony that sprouts out of a rootless relationship; out of missing something that just isn’t there, that never was, and won’t ever be.…
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Relatable Life Lessons
I’m writing a thing I titled 100 Relatable Lessons, which is basically just some words of advice and short phrases for anyone who needs to hear some reassurance, encouragement, or just a giggle. If you’re here you must love words, so why not?! They’re my mantra, which I recycle quite a bit, and they’re both, my “note to self” and advice to others. I save them like a good journaler (nerd alert) and thought I’d share a few. Hope you like these. The mystery of life can never be solved, only lived. A life on repeat mode is fun to no one. Play that record well. Read a lot. Travel…
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The Feeling You Just Keep Feeding
What if I put it in colors, I said, staring at the hundreds of unused color pencils resting on my table. Actually, what if I put it in writing? But how can I put it; there’s no way to put it. I can’t make sense of, you know, that feeling that you just keep feeding, and which proper diet you can’t quite figure out. Some emotions are hard to express when you don’t even know what they mean. I wish everything was as easy as happiness and anger, which we can identify right away, apply logic and manage accordingly. But, oh no. Life is more complex than that, and that…
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By Chance – What If?
It’s so funny the way some things turn out. One tiny action can change the course of your life forever. We experience so many of those instances, but I don’t think we always realize just how freakish it is. Sometimes, it’s almost inevitable to cross paths with some people. It feels like you were meant to meet them. Your coworkers or your classmates, for example; they were already there (or it might’ve been you) and it’s easy to predict you’ll see one another every day after that and will probably become close friends. Still met by chance, but it was more of a forced interaction. The event could make sense…
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Potential Psychopaths or Shy People
Upon realizing I was feeling tired, I turned around to skip the one mile walk and head to a local store instead, one within shorter distance. I heard the flapping sound of flip-flops following right behind me. I turned so quickly I must not have seen who it was and, by then, I was embarrassed to look back. Sometimes, I imagine that, if I ever get abducted, this is how my “captor” will get away; criminal sketch artists couldn’t save me because I didn’t want to look at my attacker’s face. I only knew it was a woman because of the shadow—long ponytail swaying from side to side. But this…
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The Ones Who Stay, The Ones Who Go Away
There are friends who want you to stay Friends who want you away Friends in distress Friends in happiness Friends from childhood Friends you just met There are friends who show up Friends who give up Friends who go the extra mile Friends who won’t walk down one aisle Friends you can sin with Friends to go to church with There are friends who believe in you Friends who doubt you Friends who call to check on you Friends who call to get something from you Friends who listen when you talk Friends who only do the talk There are friends you can get wild with Friends you can only…
