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Not mutual? Not worth fixing
“Blood is thicker than water,” as I’ve found, is just another fairytale. It’s one of the many stories we tell ourselves to try to make sense of what’s important in life; try to make sense of interpersonal relationships. I had always defended the idea that family ties were, and should, come before everything. But inevitably, my own belief bit me in the arse. It turned out to be just another disillusionment of life. Accepting others as they are; accepting that maybe there will always be different points of view, even among a tight group of people who grew up together, is key to avoiding unnecessary disappointments. I adopted that philosophy…
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Profound lines about a fiery sky
I started with a poetic line inspired by the far fiery horizon line, and I really thought I was on to something ’til my mom wouldn’t stop background-talking Is this how inspiration is killed? is two too much of a crowd for deep words to be spilled? One lost train of thought and all is gone maddening but always with much to say ‘cause after all isn’t this how a story is born? Words flow quick in this head yet I stay down to earth when I say normals don’t understand all that it takes, that once you’re wired you better fan the flames One circumstantial vodka shot can numb…
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Intentions so good they seem bad
“You learn something new every day” is not a cliche. It’s far from being it. And guess what? I learned that, not in school, not at home either but through own experiences one casual day. You do learn something new every day. You could have lived half a life without realizing how real everyday actions and popular sayings are until they happen to you. I’ve learned so much this year I should call myself a scholar, but no; still a student of life. Recently I’m learning about good intentions. It is not the simple thing you thought it was. It seems like everything you knew about everything really is just…not…
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Wait for what?
I was just thinking about how much time we waste by waiting. Consciously and subconsciously, we “wait-list” too much in life. It’s almost as we are conditioned to believe that some things do need to be put on hold for a better time, when in reality the time is now. The present is the surest thing we have. Have you ever saved the best bite on your plate for last? A cute outfit for a “special” occasion? And how often do you hear people say they don’t want to take a picture or a video because they don’t have makeup or the right attire on? “It’s just not the right…
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Snow in July
The cows would come home, snowed in July, lilies bloom in the Sahara the Nile gone dry before a single atom in your body learns how to commit to one I saw a way out and I took it didn’t come easy a decision but sometimes better be a quitter had to eat my words for even thinking you could take me seriously, shapeshifter ashamed to admit my naivety ashamed to have wandered aimlessly for on the shakiest of grounds I searched for stability Not my problem anymore still truehearted you’re not but can’t help but wonder, did I get away for being too wise? Is it always only the…
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I think I burned the popcorn
I am usually very well-coordinated, organized, and able to follow directions. But when it comes to cooking, I am a completely, absolutely, and entirely helpless mess. It is maybe one of the only things (from the list of life essentials) that I just can’t get right. It’s been a running a joke among my family and friends for as long as I can remember, but it’s not even funny anymore; it is ridiculous. It doesn’t help that the kitchen is the last place I want to be. And I gave up on trying to be a chef a long time ago, but thought I’d talk about it one more time…
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Unraveling Thin Walls
My neighbors go quiet every so often. And on occasions, they’re as loud as a Saturday market. I can tell they’re a couple, unless their idea of “casual” also means living together. Their instability is loud. I can’t quite make out their day-long arguments, but I hear the yelling, the sobbing, and the door slamming. It got me thinking, if that’s love, then I don’t want it. But of course, it is not. Though I never have and never could stay in that sort of relationship, I know toxic when I see it. I’d say theirs is way past toxicity; it’s lethal. I grew up in a peaceful environment, so…
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To Say It or Not to Say It
They say some things are better left unsaid; that silence is golden and never to say anything that doesn’t help the situation. They say a thousand things about “things you shouldn’t say,” and they have whole lists out there. They say so much about staying silent, too, and I do agree…with part of it, when said for certain reasons and at the right moment. But is it ever the right moment when life is a constant contradiction? When “speak now or forever hold your peace” can be a life-changing decision? In an argument, your choice of words can make you or break you. Better to remain silent when you’re angry.…
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Friends Now Gone Later
So much has been said about friendships, through personal anecdotes, quotes, proverbs, and entire books, that you think you know what a “real friend” should be and should act like. Some of those stories hold truth today, but I think it is something that you eventually learn on your own. Who is a friend? It’s funny how sometimes you befriend people in your childhood and, because you grew up with them, you think you owe one another loyalty and that your friendship is meant to be. But, sometimes, those people who watched you grow and were perhaps the first ones to learn all about your inclinations — your style, taste,…
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Early Signs of Your True Calling
Did you always know what you were meant be? Every now and then, it hits me, that even though I was so painfully introverted I could pass as a mute when I was a child, I always had a lot to say. And maybe the proof is in all the times I was punished for talking back. The other day, I was having a conversation with my mom. We were just reminiscing about my childhood and how she used to call me “malcriada” in Spanish because I never shut up when asked to. All my siblings knew better, but I always had to get that last word out. Whenever I…
