The last heartbeat in me

And even after the sun did twelve laps
even after your claws came out
even after your true colors showed
the last heartbeat in me
was somehow relieved
I was able to breathe

I had agreed to just let it go
I had made peace with this popular belief
that habit was stronger than love
but I guess I never saw
a feeling bloom on concrete

Eternity falls short
and I still can’t understand why,
but it is one of those battles
you just fight hopelessly
to win and stay alive

And no matter
how many red flags were waved
you go back to sleep
hoping
or thinking
or wishing
that in the morning
it’ll be just a memory, a dream
but there’s no one else to kid

One day you find out
the foundation was porous to begin with
but you kept going, you went with it
because hope is always triumph in defeat

I gave it my all,
though not a necessity
especially when reciprocity
was a rare little thing in their heart
to be found; callosity.