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When all else fails, move on
Why are life experiences so repetitive? That feeling when you know you’ve been there before, emotionally, and you already know what happens next. It’s so conflicting. It’s like you want to hit fast-forward to see if life surprises you this time. But it doesn’t. And you want to know what the (not so) funny thing about it is? You gained experienced the first time you were there, but somehow you still don’t know how to handle it; what the best course of action is, or what the process will be like. These are meant to be lessons, but I’ve learned nothing. What I’m referring to in this particular post is…
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Failure to engage – a poem
You’re just there. as if randomly sitting across the bar, staring for hours but not engaging, only difference is you and I are no strangers. But the fruit must be pleasant to the eye ’cause you keep coming back like bees to a hive. Still I can’t help but wonder: is it the content galore, that you show no support for, or am I the subject you want to explore? Interesting people tend to trigger others’ inquisitiveness, also known as nosiness, and I’m flattered, but I’m tired. What’s in it for me? I don’t always get to see who you’d be while everybody else has a key to a world…
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Friends Now Gone Later
So much has been said about friendships, through personal anecdotes, quotes, proverbs, and entire books, that you think you know what a “real friend” should be and should act like. Some of those stories hold truth today, but I think it is something that you eventually learn on your own. Who is a friend? It’s funny how sometimes you befriend people in your childhood and, because you grew up with them, you think you owe one another loyalty and that your friendship is meant to be. But, sometimes, those people who watched you grow and were perhaps the first ones to learn all about your inclinations — your style, taste,…
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The Real Ones
It hurts to admit when a friendship has run its course. But it hurts more to keep holding on. It’s been said over and over again, but the truth is it does. You keep feeding your expectations just to end up disappointed once again. There’s nothing quite as complicated as interpersonal relationships. It is said that we, humans, are the most intelligent species on this planet, but I remain skeptical. How can you explain the fact that some humans consciously destroy everything they “love”? And, what goes on in that brain of theirs at that point? It’s true that we all f–ck up. Some things are hard to rationalize, especially…
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22 Lessons I Learned from Heartbreak
I’ve learned that anyone you care about can crush you into pieces. I’ve learned that heartbreak doesn’t always have a sad face. I’ve learned that “it’ll pass” or “man up” / “woman up” won’t help the healing process. I’ve learned that society believes in rebounds and expects you to erase years of fond memories in a one night. I’ve learned that some people, particularly the heartbreakers, can move on really fast. I’ve learned that no matter how many articles you read about “what not to do when you’re heartbroken”, you’ll do it anyway. I’ve learned that you can look right into the heartbreakers’ eye with a brave face and effortlessly…
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Flowers and Relationships
While taking care of my bouquet of roses the other day, I started thinking about the relationship between flowers and, well, relationships. Although not groundbreaking, it is a symbol worth noting and remembering whenever we find ourselves wondering what went wrong. Like flowers, relationships are susceptible to withering. Some, you will find, quicker than others. The thing is, when you take that extra care of your flowers — adding the chemical solution in the water to keep them fresh, changing the water every now and then (or watering them if a garden), keeping them cool, etc. — the flowers naturally will last longer. You’re investing quality time on them and…
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The Feeling You Just Keep Feeding
What if I put it in colors, I said, staring at the hundreds of unused color pencils resting on my table. Actually, what if I put it in writing? But how can I put it; there’s no way to put it. I can’t make sense of, you know, that feeling that you just keep feeding, and which proper diet you can’t quite figure out. Some emotions are hard to express when you don’t even know what they mean. I wish everything was as easy as happiness and anger, which we can identify right away, apply logic and manage accordingly. But, oh no. Life is more complex than that, and that…
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The Ones Who Stay, The Ones Who Go Away
There are friends who want you to stay Friends who want you away Friends in distress Friends in happiness Friends from childhood Friends you just met There are friends who show up Friends who give up Friends who go the extra mile Friends who won’t walk down one aisle Friends you can sin with Friends to go to church with There are friends who believe in you Friends who doubt you Friends who call to check on you Friends who call to get something from you Friends who listen when you talk Friends who only do the talk There are friends you can get wild with Friends you can only…
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An Apology
We’re not perfect Do you ever wonder why we’re holding on to this anger? I haven’t forgotten what we’re fighting for But I’m starting to wonder if it’s worth it at all I want back the you I used to know I’m not willing to forget, just willing to forgive Or is it the other way around? All I can think is how short life can be This is pointless We’re not getting any younger, let’s pick up where we left off let’s start a new dance, let’s write a new song. Do we want to get older and regret it for the rest of our lives? So many what-ifs…
